sunday monday

i'm hanging onto you
like sunday does to monday
i am holding you so dear
you're walking away
i'm standing still
you'll be back i hope
i'm hanging on to you
like a shoe lace does to a shoe
if it kills me
i will make it
if it kills me
the alcohol inside of me
has given me a headache
stuck in second gear
anger and fear
i am sill standing still
i don't know why
now to me
your just a person in picture frame
thats where you belong
your but a memory now
that little bit i have left
is occupied by you
i smile when i see those memories
scattered about my mind
my room
my life
i'm hanging onto you
like sunday does to monday
i need you like a sunny day needs a warm breeze

mazes in time

i wonder
how u would react
i try
but i fail
you fail me
i've never failed you
you fail my test
my feelings
my emotions
you fail
at it all
its easy to relapse
i do it all the time
i fall
back under
i dive
right back in
one of these days
i'd like u to see
what i see
u'd be
to say
the least
hurt

faded jeans

i did some growing up
i did some moving on
i realized
i cannot live
through
you

your just not the same
its better
this way
then that way
trust me
i know
whats best for me

your not longer part of the recipe
your no longer near to me
dear to me

just me
all me
all my choice
i realized
what this was
i was free
and it all came back
i felt so free
and like me

it came back
like a bad bad cold
like a contagious flu
summer will come
birds will sing
and i'll be somewhere
and i'll have changed
and i'll know
whats right for me
when i said goodbye
i said so long

when i said never leave me
i meant i'll never leave you
when i said i'll be back
i meant i'll try and be there
its just a phase
just a daze
just a still picture

monday morning sun is bright

this i know
there are still some songs
i cannot play
i cannot hear
i don't know why
i don't know how
this happened to me
you run
and your killing me
your always looking for something new
but baby
something new
isn't gunna come your way
this is hard
for me
not for you
i wonder if you know
i wonder if you see
this is the place i should be
but this isn't the place i want to be
its hard i know
its hard to see
sometimes its blind
sometimes its light
sometimes is when i feel ok
it'll be fine
i know
i know
but its hard you know
i'm trying to move on
but i can't
i keep coming back baby
coming back
baby

my favorite poem

ohh baby baby baby
this is bad bad news
baby baby baby
this is my breaking news
i am bad bad baby
this is why i had to leave
i finally realized
you were bad for me
oh baby baby baby
you are nothing
but bad bad news
a pretty heart breaker
a pretty fast walker
your walking right away
from everyone you know
baby baby baby
this is bad bad news
baby baby baby
this is why
i am leaving you

when all your love is gone

i'm half alive but i feel mostly dead
i try and tell myself it will be alright
i just shouldn't think anymore tonight

i got you babe

i have everything
i have everyone
why
is life always
so grey
so blah
so normal
i used to be fine
i used to be
to be
this is how life is
day one
day two
all of a sudden
its day 300
and then its over
life is over
a new life
begins
sometimes
i sit
and stare
out the window
all day
all day long
i look out that window
its like clockwork
my life
8:30
10:30
12:30
5:30
11:00
thats how it happens
i know
whats where
and who's where
and where who belongs
i have it all
i'm lucky
i walk this road
everyday
i see these people
everyday
with the same
nothing to say
but
nobodys
trying to break my heart
i sleep
in the same big bed
i hear the same damn
thing every night
i hear the same words
i say them back
because
if not i'd be cold
i fear
thier
meaningless
i fear
they are false
tomorrow will tell
how i feel
the night is near
which means
i get to go to bed
its sunday
and since we're on a
schedule
that means one thing

roll my eyes
i do it all the time